Sometimes I am so sure that I KNOW that I follow the KNOWing with or is “it my ego telling me that I know?” Why is trusting in our intuition or our truth so complicated? Why can’t it just BE?
Once the doubt of the truth or knowing kicks in for me and I begin to question if its ego – I have developed a pathway or an avenue so to speak to determine is it truth or is it ego. I sit back and feel – I listen to my heart and if it is truth I KNOW – I really know. I know because I feel – Joy, Sadness, Happiness – you name it but I feel. If its ego its fear and usually the response I get is cerebral. I may be sitting there trying to feel but instead I am thinking. Usually ego – my ego is a great manager of fear. If I fear your opinion of me – I will either convince myself you are a loser and spend countless minutes picking apart everything you say and comparing you to me and of course ignoring all of my faults and thinking only on or about my past achievements (even if they involved cheating or bending the truth). Ego is not a nice thing but it is very protective of my heart and while I appreciate its protection it keeps me isolated from others, without love and usually dissatisfied with myself, others and my life.
Some crazy stuff has happened to me lately or a better way to describe it is I have become aware of some crazy stuff – or just stuff labeled crazy by me because it doesn’t fit or gel with the pre-awakened me. I need to trust it as truth because I know it is truth – it isn’t the kind of stuff you share with others or at least the others I am typically surrounded by or they will truly think me to be crazy. I will continue to walk through the fear of being the new me (the real me) and trusting in what comes to my heart because I know it to be true even if it isn’t mainstream. I know there is love in truth and in my heart and all that I truly KNOW will set me free and allow me more strength to walk through new and improved fears. Walking through it and living in love today!
My friends its a good day to be alive and its a good day to be me and you! Facing a fear of your own – trust your heart and listen to it. It will give you the strength and set you free.